drivin miss daisy…

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

out of his overflow
i flow
how deep is
your cup
selah
love
not lust
i trust in him
who gives us
even when not lookin
the taken
and tookin
wind up empty handed
be more candid?

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

cuz when he comes
back no room for
lacs, raps or dream bandits
imposters at best
his light for my
my life
his life for my
my life
new levels
victories shovel
covering losses
brand new
im through
with lack
in fact its
abundance
how’s that for living green

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

for runnin numbers
for once
stop counting and
start counting
his love for me
his blood
“clean sheets”
brand new
in truth in light
knowing the way
no more fight
no mo flights
feet hurt
however beautiful
cause i preach
i teach
more than
accomplished
conqueror

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

i wont lose
cant lose
failure sits
next to me in
the back seat
while victory,
he’s the driver…

I dare you…

I DARE YOU TO THINK OF SOMEONE BESIDES YOURSELF

I DARE YOU TO LOOK BEYOND YOUR RIGHT NOW, YOUR CURRENT CIRCUMSTANCE OR SITUATION

I DARE YOU TO LOOK INTO THE EYES OF YOUR CHILDREN AND EXPLAIN WHY YOU CANT

I DARE YOU TO GROW

I DARE YOU TO GIVE LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER GIVEN BEFORE

I DARE YOU TO LOVE LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER LOVED BEFORE

I DARE YOU TO COME OUT FROM UNDER THE SELFISH ROCK YOU LIVE AND LIVE FOR SOMEONE OTHER THAN YOURSELF…

with this dare in mind… i am simply challenging you to visit one site before you move from the computer to the couch, or turn your laptop off and move one to something else, i want you to visit onevanonevillage.org.

Watch the video, read the story, introduce yourself to Laurie Kroll, and last but not least…

GIVE!!!

lose yourself…

its a song title, become a cliche and probably lost most of its meaning, but today it is at the forefront of my mind…

What does it mean, why would you want to and lose myself to what? Why would being vulnerable and WIDE OPEN be a good thing? How can i protect myself if i take off all of the nine thousand masks i have created since i was a child? Wont people take advantage of me?

“Self”preservation has become the cornerstone for life, relationships, marriage and anything else that involves human contact and connection. WE DONT WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW WHO WE REALLY ARE BECAUSE THEN THEY MAY KNOW JUST HOW INADEQUATE OR HURT OR SIMPLE OR SIMPLY SEE THE “REAL” YOU!!! So, with that said, we are back to our original questions… why?

Our lives are summed up in our experiences, our past, our background, and exposure. We cling to our past as if it was a life raft, “saving” us from future… when in reality it is why we are DROWNING!!!

Losing yourself is not the enemy! Letting go of yesterday, the good the bad and especially the ugly, wil not make you any less prepared for your future!

This is one of the many joys of a full fledge, naked, vulnerable relationship with Christ! You lose who you thought you were, and cling to who He says you are! Your past is gone as long as you let it go! You get a clean slate! You live and not survive! You get a chance to be loved the way you have dreamed and longed to be loved!!

So, what are you waiting on, lose yourself… besides you (or I) are not as important as WE THINK WE ARE!!!

What are you afraid of?
Why wont you let go?
Will you lose yourself and re-learn to LIVE?

in her…

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with this gift
i rejoice
used to be voice
less now i sing
from within
my love
my heart
my best friend/soulmate
from the start
couldn’t wait
to kiss her soul
dance in the rain under moonlight

in her i found me
in her i found the dreams
i left on the side of the road
in her is heaven, my home…

love is…
her heart
her smile
for one glance
i’d dance across hell’s fire
with one chance
allowed love to dance
as angels watched
intangible like the
wind and gentle
like the future
with her in my arms

in her I found me
in her I found my dreams
I life on the side of the road
In her is heaven, my home…

Esther,

I love you more than life itself. The words above only express a minute fraction of how i feel and what you mean to me. I hope to write from today to forever, you the muse, my hearts love the pen! I know i am far from perfect, i thank you for loving me anyway, in spite of all my flaws and inconsistencies. You are a gift from the most high, Christ who is Lord! I dont deserve you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

PLEASE GO HERE AND WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PLEASE!!!

starting…

I don’t care what you are starting, family, relationship, marriage, business or church, starting anything is a difficult and can CONSUME YOU, if you let it. The thing is, that no matter what you are starting, no matter what you decide to put together, to create there are typically two things (of course there are more) that it will cost you a great deal of. There are two things that will be a challenge, hurdle (more like a steeplechase) and an indicator  of your threshold for both pain and success! What are those two things, TIME & MONEY!

Does that make any sense to you?

TIME

There is never enough. The people around you want more, than you seemingly have to give. Even when you plan the most perfect day (time management) something will come up and attempt to throw a monkey wrench in your plans. If your in a relationship, then time might be one of the most valuable commodities you have, how else will you ever come to know the person you are in a relationship with. When you make a physical, mental, emotional commitment you also have just committed a large (to be determined hopefully by both parties involved) amount of time to the new relationship. This is the same no matter your poison, whether it be business, family, church planting or marriage… TIME is a crucial asset that must be leveraged correctly or it will destroy you and more importantly the people around you. I speak from experience!

MONEY

Look, plain and simple is WE need it. You need it to start a business (if you don’t want to shut down or not be able to pay employees), you need it for the dates and eventually you will need it for a wedding and BOI!! do you need it to start a church (note: I’m not saying how much, but you need some). The reality is this one thing probably destroys more things than anything else, if you don’t believe me just look at our economy. We have been “thriving” (note: plenty sarcasm) for so long as a country off of credit for money we hope to have in the future or make in ROI and when the bottom falls out, there is no cold hard cash to stand on. Political rant over! But seriously, money or lack of and sometimes surplus of, can create issues in any of the above settings. Like time, you must get a real and honest grasp of your control over it. Over the desire to put it first in your relationship, over the temptation to splurge and not be wise, or the temptation to skim from the top of a business or church. The temptation and desire is real! Equally as important is flat out learning to MANAGE the money you have!!! I speak from experience.

These two things, time and money, are not ALL that matters. Nor or they the only things that make or break an endeavor, but they are two of the first things that will be challenged or attacked by the enemy in any one of these endeavors, especially if you have a fondness for either one before entering endeavor! I love the fact that God has provided Grace for these and so many other issues. You are going to need it. Not, just for yourself, but for those you are involved with. Perhaps you are the one who is a great manager of time but your partner isn’t. Perhaps you are a wise financial stud, but your partner needs to mature in this area, God’s Grace is more than sufficient! Your job is to not tear down, but to encourage, correct lovingly and pray- but you probably should pray first!!! LOL!

out of darkness into His marvelous night…

The words of a father…

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What do they mean? Why do they carry so much weight? What happens to those who never hear them? Should the words of a father make or break a child’s, or adults for that matter, life?

I remember almost ten years ago sitting in Marietta, GA watching Big Daddy with some friends and out of no where tears began to fall down my face. I found myself completely naked emotionally, open, vulnerable and wondering why my father had not told me he loved me. I called him that very moment and asked him. He immediately thought something was wrong, yet still not able to articulate his feelings. I hung up. He had his then girlfriend/fiance call me to make sure i was OK, and to reassure me that he loved me. IT WAS NOT THE SAME. He then got on the phone to tell me himself. I don’t know how long I waited to hear that, or even remember why that moment and at that particular time, but I NEEDED IT!

Next month, it will be three years since his funeral.

I look at my kids daily and KNOW that i don’t say everything right, or do everything right. I know that I don’t have all of the answers to the infinite questions that they have already about life and their future. I know that there are times when I say something and it is taking differently if a stranger, friend, or even their mother might say it. But, why is that? Why, if I raise my voice it is taken to the ‘inth degree and someone else may do the same thing and its as if they ignored them. I didn’t get it.

Until now.

We, both young and old, who have realized that God through a relationship with Christ is our Father have a burning desire to impress, please and desire a closeness with Him. We, long to be who he has desired us to be. Outside of this relationship, we, both sons and daughters, desire and yearn for a relationship with a “father” or father figure of some sort. This inate desire comes from an internal longing to be one with God, but that is another post!

That was a mouthful.

Human nature craves approval, acceptance, love and a relationship that gives it the “OK” to be OK! I somehow along the way forgot that not long ago i was there, my boys, age and longing for the same thing they do. The words of their father. the words of approval, correction, acceptance and love. They long for me to give them what I have been able to receive from my step father who has more than accepted me like was his own flesh and blood.

To my boys, I love you. I love you more everyday as you grow into young men. I am who i am because of you!

I have to end this here…

Daddy

YOU DID IT!!!

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Man, I can almost see the faces of those kids now, as they will find out on Monday that not only will they go on their field trip, but there will be a surprise lunch thrown in it for them!I want to thank each and everyone of you for opening your hearts and wallets even in times like these!

The KINGDOM of GOD has spoken! and I love it! I wouldn’t want to be any where else than where I am right now. You guys are the ISH!!! (forgive me in advance, but I’m so freakin stoked right now!!)

I will be sure to have photos to share with you of the kids on the field trip as i have invited myself to go along… part time anyway!

Again, this has been an awesome experience and I have loved doing it with each one of you!!!

Praying that God’s richest blessings be upon you!

what are you waiting on…

50 giving $10

From Texas, South Dakota, Atlanta to Oklahoma people have answered the call of 50 giving $10 and so far we are only $200 from our goal! I just want to thank ALL of you who have given.

TODAY is the deadline, so don’t procrastinate any longer… GIVE BIG HERE!!

It means so much, I will be sure and let the kinds know who their big brothers and sisters truly are!

We will have pics of the field trip as well!

we are on our way…

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Will you be one of the 50 of give $10?

We are making progress, but cannot get this done without you!!!

For those of you who have given, may God bless you beyond your wildest dreams!!!

50 giving $10

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There are some fifth graders hoping that YOU can come through for them! I know that maybe the thought of $500.00 seems like a lot of money, so here is another way to look at it. 50 of you giving $10, or maybe even 100 of you giving $5. Just knowing that you have helped these kids go on a field trip that they otherwise wouldnt be able to go on has to be an incredible feeling.

Look, we need you. We need your help. These kids deserve to be able to leave their neighborhood and see more of the city they have lived in all of their lives. Many of their parents have never left this same neighborhood.

Will you help?

CLICK HERE

TRIP INFO:

School: John Hope Elementary, Atlanta, GA Old Fourth Ward
Field Trip: Omni Hotel, CNN Center
Grade: Fifth Graders
Surprise Lunch: Still working out details and timing issues, but my desire is The Varsity! Many of these kids have never been outside of their neighborhoods and have not experienced one of Atlanta’s Landmarks. :)